The life adventures of a crazy (former)htown guy!

I hope that everyone is doing well, I am not feeling that well this morning.... I find myself missing my other half, I find myself wanting to know what she is doing, I find myself missing my best friend. NOW, would I call her and ask her back? No. Would I take her back at this point and everything that she has done? NO. Would I like for her to go to counseling? Yes. Would I like for her to be a better person for the next guy? Yes. I would proabaly even pay for her to go. I would like for her to be a better person to who ever sees her next time.

I don't know what I want to do today, I am thinking that I am going to go boating.

You lose friends and family on the road of life. To those I have lost along the road of life, for whatever reason... For those I shared time with and had fun with or shared a memory. Those no longer in my circle... thanks for the time. I hope in whatever way myself and my friends brought you some joy... so here's to you....


This is such a true statement....

I saw this today... and it made me think....

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam..

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more if you can share it with someone special.

Yep, I am up and at the office this morning, I don't know wehre to go right now, but I am trying to figure it out, I am not that busy today. I do have a few appointments.

ummmm... I don't know how it is going, but I am working through it. My friends are great, I am fastly aproching the stage where I do not care, and I don't want to see or think about her any more. I think that I am at the stage that I wouldn't take her back right now. I don't know about me not caring, but that will come with some time. I hope that it is sooner rather than later. You know, it is amazing how much you can learn to care about someone in just a short period of time. I am begining to think that I need to slow down, way down the speed at which relationships take with me. I don't know what I want to do this weekend, but I do want to have a good time with it, I have four or five friends asking me to do three or four different things. I need to get those nailed down today though...

Over and out...

I don't know why I am doing this, but I am tearing myself up over what has happened. I have been hanging out with friends etc, but it is still very tough not to call her. I have her on my mind at all times, I guess that I should have headed the warning signs and not went in head first like I did, I never have trusted anyone this much nor have I ever been hurt this bad, but that is how it goes. I will make it through this. I have to.

Cross roads.... that is what I am at at this point... What do I do? Should I listen to everyone and totally cut my ties with julia? Should I take my money back? Should I be a jerk? I just don't know right now, but I need to figure it out today.

Over and out...

-Linn

today was a life changeing event.... So.... I am doing this now...

Last cigarette: I don’t smoke.
Last car drive: Back from theater to the house.
Last kiss: I don't care to remember.
Last time crying: This afternoon on the plane ride home.
Last book: Relationship Rescue(Plane ride yesterday)
Last movie: The Rundown! It was great!
Last used curse word: Fuck you bitch, give me my things back.
Last meal: Hot Dog at the theater.
Last drink: Diet Coke.
Last call: Talked to Chris for a while
Last TV program: American Chopper
Last shower: About four hours ago.
Last CD: Tim McGraw
Last bought item: Diet coke at the theater.
Last time excited: It wasn't a good excitement, but all day today.
Last time disappointed: This morning.... Finding out that Julia was "Dear Johning"
Last words: See ya tomorrow buddy.
Last sexual fanatsy: Man, I don't care right now
Last awkward meeting: This afternoon with Julia to retrive everything that belonged to me, and get the report from where she totaled one of my vehicles.
Last time in love: Until this morning, I am still in love, but I don't know what to do.
Last hug: This afternoon.
Last time dancing: Last night.
Last concert: I can't even remember, about two weeks ago at a local bar.
Last website: Relationship Web

i don't know what to say right now, but I am not caring about a lot of things, and I am thinking that I don't even want to talk to anyone right now. I wish that I would have moved from Houston earlier in the year like I was originally planning to. She is still wanting to date, but after what was done today, I don't know if I can, I love her so much, but I feel very used right now.